If Only

Tired eyes on a winter’s eve

Contemplating loneliness

Awaiting timid fantasy

That’s just me I guess

~

I always seemed too quick to share

And frightened off those who would be

The one to whom I could confess

The one in whom I could believe

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I imagine in my bedding

Long-since lovers who’ve forgotten me

Then close my eyes against the night

And let “if only” conquer me